Moving day is fast approaching and I feel SO unprepared! I know it will all work out in the end but I just wish I had more time. I'm, also, hoping that my soon-to-be-former landlord doesn't try to screw me out of my deposit. I really need that money! My place will be spic and span when we do a walk through on Friday. I'm moving to the studio apartment my friend set me up with. My new landlords seem really awesome! The apartment had horrible wood paneling and broken, outdated ceiling fans. Thankfully they replaced the fans and let me paint over the wood panelling. It is now much more brighter and a little more up to date. Now to figure out what to do about storage in the bathroom and kitchen area!
So, that good news will be followed by other good news! Earlier, I blogged about a blast from my past and how I still had feelings for him. Well, last Friday, he asked me if I wanted to pick up where we left off in our relationship almost 10 years ago! Of course, I said yes! We are taking things slow though for now which is totally fine with me. I don't want to screw this up like I did last time!
That's all I have for now. I really need to remember to post here more often as it is a good way for me to vent the things I can't say on FB. No one really ever sees this where as everyone sees my posts on FB! ;)
Goodnight!
Tuesday, April 1, 2014
Monday, March 24, 2014
Girls Weekend
Over the weekend, I finally had a nice little getaway from the stress. My girlfriends and I went to the central coast of California. We left Friday night and came back on Sunday afternoon and had such a nice time! We stayed in Morro Bay and visited San Luis Obispo, Cambria, Hearst Castle, and Solvang. I'd never visited Cambria before since I never thought there was much to it but have decided to stay there next time I visit! The place is such a great little artsy town that has a forest feel right next to the ocean! Loved it!
It was a great break and a great few days to forget my woes. Too bad my woes were still there when I got back. My current issue has to do with my other friends. I've been looking for people to help me paint my new place and have only gotten 2 people to say that they'll be there! What the hell?? What's the point of people telling you they'll be there for you and then totally bailing on you when you do reach out to them? I'm not one to ask people for help and this is pretty much why. If you don't ask people for help, then you won't be disappointed when they flake! I know that sounds horrible of me but it's how I'm feeling right now. I've been going through some really tough times and have told my friends about this but instead of getting their support, it's like I'm getting the cold shoulder. Once again, my question to the universe is, "What the hell?" Hopefully things will improve. :(
P.S.
Forgot to mention, my landlord decided to cut my lease a month early. I was freaking out about finding a place. Luckily, a friend from high school introduced me to a friend of her's who, also, happened to be another friend's sister-in-law! They have a studio apartment that should work out great for Geisha and I! Let's hope it all goes well! :)
It was a great break and a great few days to forget my woes. Too bad my woes were still there when I got back. My current issue has to do with my other friends. I've been looking for people to help me paint my new place and have only gotten 2 people to say that they'll be there! What the hell?? What's the point of people telling you they'll be there for you and then totally bailing on you when you do reach out to them? I'm not one to ask people for help and this is pretty much why. If you don't ask people for help, then you won't be disappointed when they flake! I know that sounds horrible of me but it's how I'm feeling right now. I've been going through some really tough times and have told my friends about this but instead of getting their support, it's like I'm getting the cold shoulder. Once again, my question to the universe is, "What the hell?" Hopefully things will improve. :(
P.S.
Forgot to mention, my landlord decided to cut my lease a month early. I was freaking out about finding a place. Luckily, a friend from high school introduced me to a friend of her's who, also, happened to be another friend's sister-in-law! They have a studio apartment that should work out great for Geisha and I! Let's hope it all goes well! :)
Sunday, March 2, 2014
Lemonade, lemon cookies, limoncelo
Life has thrown me so many lemons that I've run out of things to make with them! Health issues, work issues, financial issues, death of several friends.... all within January and February. It's been tough. There was a time where I wanted to give up, hide from the world. I could tell how everything going on was affecting my personality and my friendships. I've seen which friends can understand and accept what's going on and are trying to be supportive. I've also now seen which friends are not as great as they appeared to be. It's amazing to me how when times are tough, some things become so much clearer. I see the light at the end of the tunnel. I'm getting there faster by letting go of the negative thoughts, negative emotions, AND the negative people. Now if only my timing would be better! Lol
An old friend of mine has returned into my life. We have known each other half my life but have not been in contact for several years due to some issues. Well, the issues seem to have been resolved so we've now been in contact for a little over a month. Our first time seeing each other in years was when he came out for my birthday dinner. I was so excited to see him and have my friend back! What I wasn't expecting was the flood of emotions to take over me when he walked through my door. I know that, back in the day, I had feelings for him. We had tried dating but it just didn't work out and so, like I wish for all my guy friends, I had hoped for him to find his happiness. When the issue came about, I was asked to take a step away from our friendship (not by him). So, for his happiness, I did. I have always cared about him and had wondered how he had been doing while we were incommunicado. Although he was happy, the realization came for him that it wasn't true happiness. I would like to be his happiness. Usually, when I first met a guy, I get that initial feeling of infatuation. It takes spending time together 2 or 3 more times got me to get a proper reading on my true feelings for him. With this guy, the more we talk on the phone or dorms time together, the stronger my feelings are for him. He's seen me at my worse and at my best. He was there for me for some of the tough times in my life and had helped me celebrate some of the happier occasions. I wish I could tell him how I feel, how much he means to me, but I can't. He had said to me that he's not at a place in his life right now to start a relationship yet. I don't blame him either. He needs his time for him and I need to be supportive of that. The hardest part in all this is knowing I've been in love with this man for as long as I've known him and knowing that I might have missed my chance with him. If things are meant to be for us, then they will be. I just have to have faith and patience! :-)
An old friend of mine has returned into my life. We have known each other half my life but have not been in contact for several years due to some issues. Well, the issues seem to have been resolved so we've now been in contact for a little over a month. Our first time seeing each other in years was when he came out for my birthday dinner. I was so excited to see him and have my friend back! What I wasn't expecting was the flood of emotions to take over me when he walked through my door. I know that, back in the day, I had feelings for him. We had tried dating but it just didn't work out and so, like I wish for all my guy friends, I had hoped for him to find his happiness. When the issue came about, I was asked to take a step away from our friendship (not by him). So, for his happiness, I did. I have always cared about him and had wondered how he had been doing while we were incommunicado. Although he was happy, the realization came for him that it wasn't true happiness. I would like to be his happiness. Usually, when I first met a guy, I get that initial feeling of infatuation. It takes spending time together 2 or 3 more times got me to get a proper reading on my true feelings for him. With this guy, the more we talk on the phone or dorms time together, the stronger my feelings are for him. He's seen me at my worse and at my best. He was there for me for some of the tough times in my life and had helped me celebrate some of the happier occasions. I wish I could tell him how I feel, how much he means to me, but I can't. He had said to me that he's not at a place in his life right now to start a relationship yet. I don't blame him either. He needs his time for him and I need to be supportive of that. The hardest part in all this is knowing I've been in love with this man for as long as I've known him and knowing that I might have missed my chance with him. If things are meant to be for us, then they will be. I just have to have faith and patience! :-)
Saturday, January 18, 2014
The plague
For the past few days I've been dealing with the plague. Actually, it's a mild case of whooping cough. We caught it early so we were able to hit it hard with medication and keep it from getting worse. Definitely not a chest infection or I'd be feeling a lot better than I am right now. Geisha has been keeping me company but is a terrible nursemaid. At least she doesn't mind all the sitting around on the couch.
I had to miss a day of work and have a note excusing me from work tomorrow but I might go in anyways. I haven't had a fever in over 24 hours so that's a good thing. I'm still really tired though and today I've been having issues with getting dizzy pretty easily. The coughing fits aren't as bad either. I still plan to take it easy today. Let's see how the day progresses and we'll figure out if work is an option later.
Unfortunately, I was unable to participate in the 10k I had been invited to. That really bummed me out as I was really looking forward to it. Oh well. I'll see about signing up for the next one later this year. :-)
The biggest thing that is bumming me out right now is the fact that I haven't been able to spend time with anyone. I'm a people person. I thrive on being around people. Having been stuck at home for three days now, with no interaction with anyone, has made me a little depressed. Probably another reason why I want to go back to work (even though I'll be working 6 days in a row).
Alright, time for a nap. Hope you all have a great day! :-)
I had to miss a day of work and have a note excusing me from work tomorrow but I might go in anyways. I haven't had a fever in over 24 hours so that's a good thing. I'm still really tired though and today I've been having issues with getting dizzy pretty easily. The coughing fits aren't as bad either. I still plan to take it easy today. Let's see how the day progresses and we'll figure out if work is an option later.
Unfortunately, I was unable to participate in the 10k I had been invited to. That really bummed me out as I was really looking forward to it. Oh well. I'll see about signing up for the next one later this year. :-)
The biggest thing that is bumming me out right now is the fact that I haven't been able to spend time with anyone. I'm a people person. I thrive on being around people. Having been stuck at home for three days now, with no interaction with anyone, has made me a little depressed. Probably another reason why I want to go back to work (even though I'll be working 6 days in a row).
Alright, time for a nap. Hope you all have a great day! :-)
Tuesday, January 14, 2014
Tough day
Yesterday ended up being a tough day. After work, I had a memorial service to go to for a very dear friend of mine. Her death was very unexpected as she and her mother never told anyone that she was in the hospital. Kimberly caught a blood infection after having heart valve surgery. Unfortunately, her body just couldn't fight off the infection and, a few days before Christmas, she passed away.
Mom and I managed to hold it together for most of the service but, in the end, we were both having to clean up our runny make-up.
Kimberly was such a beautiful person. She was smart, sassy, spunky, didn't sugar coat anything, would tell it like it is, but would do just about anything for anyone. She would go above and beyond what was ever asked of her, always wanting to do the best job she could do. She was someone that you could always rely on.
She had a strong love for Emblem Club, art, and the Queen Mary Luxury Liner, and could probably be seen as an expert in all three areas. She was commited to those she loved and the work that she did.
Once she accepted you as a friend, you were a friend for life. If you ask for Kimberly's opinion, then don't be upset when she tells it to you like it is! She's only being honest because she wants what's best for you. Her caring heart and nature seemed to be in contrast with her brash personality but that mix made her unique and genuine.
Kimberly was more than just a friend to me, she was my sister as well. We called each other "brats" but it was out of love and affection. We were the brats of Emblem! No matter how much time had passed between conversations and meet-ups, we were able to pick things up as if no time had passed at all. Even though we didn't talk as much as I would have liked, I thought about her often. I was so proud of her, her accomplishments, and the support she showed her mother, Jacki, through her Emblem Club career.
Kimberly was and will always be an amazing woman. I love you and miss you much, my sister!
Mom and I managed to hold it together for most of the service but, in the end, we were both having to clean up our runny make-up.
Kimberly was such a beautiful person. She was smart, sassy, spunky, didn't sugar coat anything, would tell it like it is, but would do just about anything for anyone. She would go above and beyond what was ever asked of her, always wanting to do the best job she could do. She was someone that you could always rely on.
She had a strong love for Emblem Club, art, and the Queen Mary Luxury Liner, and could probably be seen as an expert in all three areas. She was commited to those she loved and the work that she did.
Once she accepted you as a friend, you were a friend for life. If you ask for Kimberly's opinion, then don't be upset when she tells it to you like it is! She's only being honest because she wants what's best for you. Her caring heart and nature seemed to be in contrast with her brash personality but that mix made her unique and genuine.
Kimberly was more than just a friend to me, she was my sister as well. We called each other "brats" but it was out of love and affection. We were the brats of Emblem! No matter how much time had passed between conversations and meet-ups, we were able to pick things up as if no time had passed at all. Even though we didn't talk as much as I would have liked, I thought about her often. I was so proud of her, her accomplishments, and the support she showed her mother, Jacki, through her Emblem Club career.
Kimberly was and will always be an amazing woman. I love you and miss you much, my sister!
Sunday, January 12, 2014
First post
Well, I guess this is my first ever post for my first ever blog! Thank you to the talented Laura Gray at Redshirt Design for the awesome job you did creating this blog for me and the pups!
I guess I should tell you all a little bit about myself. My name is Liz! I have lived in Orange County, CA my whole life. I'm a very outgoing and caring person, who loves to do things for those around her but my type A personality came cause me to come off as a bit** sometimes. I work as a Public Safety Dispatcher and love working in law enforcement. Some things I enjoy include running, singing, participating in the SCA, hiking, camping, hanging out with friends, coffee, sleep, video/computer games, and spending time with my dogs. I also have an annual pass to Disneyland in which my friends and I love to take silly pictures on the rides.
My two dogs are my furry kids! I have my little old man, Dutch, and my princess, Geisha. Dutch is a 12 year old, jack russel mix. He is brown in color with a dark stripe running up his back. He used to have a little white, beatnik goatee when he was a pup but now he has raccoon eyes from all the white on his face. He is a very happy, sociable old man whom I adopted 11 years ago from the Riverside Animal Shelter. Currently, Dutch lives with my mom as he is too old to climb the stairs of my apartment. I think he likes not having Geisha around all the time! lol. Geisha is definitely her namesake. She is an obnoxious, 3 year old princess who will only do what she's told if she wants to. Geisha was a stray I found wandering the streets of San Bernardino. Unfortunately, Geisha is a bit neurotic and very protective. She does not get along very well with other dogs and is slow to warm up to people. Once you've been accepted by her, though, she will show you unbelievable protection and devotion.
This blog will be a mish mosh of me, my pets, and our adventures! Let's see where the road will take us! :)
I guess I should tell you all a little bit about myself. My name is Liz! I have lived in Orange County, CA my whole life. I'm a very outgoing and caring person, who loves to do things for those around her but my type A personality came cause me to come off as a bit** sometimes. I work as a Public Safety Dispatcher and love working in law enforcement. Some things I enjoy include running, singing, participating in the SCA, hiking, camping, hanging out with friends, coffee, sleep, video/computer games, and spending time with my dogs. I also have an annual pass to Disneyland in which my friends and I love to take silly pictures on the rides.
My two dogs are my furry kids! I have my little old man, Dutch, and my princess, Geisha. Dutch is a 12 year old, jack russel mix. He is brown in color with a dark stripe running up his back. He used to have a little white, beatnik goatee when he was a pup but now he has raccoon eyes from all the white on his face. He is a very happy, sociable old man whom I adopted 11 years ago from the Riverside Animal Shelter. Currently, Dutch lives with my mom as he is too old to climb the stairs of my apartment. I think he likes not having Geisha around all the time! lol. Geisha is definitely her namesake. She is an obnoxious, 3 year old princess who will only do what she's told if she wants to. Geisha was a stray I found wandering the streets of San Bernardino. Unfortunately, Geisha is a bit neurotic and very protective. She does not get along very well with other dogs and is slow to warm up to people. Once you've been accepted by her, though, she will show you unbelievable protection and devotion.
This blog will be a mish mosh of me, my pets, and our adventures! Let's see where the road will take us! :)
Saturday, January 11, 2014
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